okie... bloggy time.. actual nuthin much to say.. tml paper 1 start. den after sch.. got sum plans..go marina south eat.. wanna celebrate ivy's birthday which is on da 7.. amalina's on 6.. Happie BirthDay My Friends
life's gettin boring.. everiday.. do past yrs paper..haiz.. Cute.. dats wad luqman call me.. sacarstically it is supposed to mean ugly but adorable.. dotz.. lots of movie cuming up today.. got 'Win A Date With Tad Hamilton' .. 'Koma'.. 'Dawn of the Dead'.. '50 first dates'.. n a cop movie by Edison..hehe my fav.. :) so mani interestin movie tat i wanna watch bt i am broke.. nvm.. my bro d.l 'win a date..' so later got time can watch..

outty..here..

yesterday.. speech day.. everiting kinda fine lor.. cheryl praised us.. lolz.. say we played much betta.. den there was a mac burger for performers den supposed to be breakfast ate it onli after everiting abt 1130 liao.. den start eating liao den noe can eat da buffet.. aiya full liao lor.. den me yuwen weipin ivy tok tok in canteen b4 go look for cheryl ask her teach physics lor.. tml test mah.. den jieyi joined us awhile lata.. den after tat all go my hse.. supposed to study.. bt kinda gossip lor.. dunid go iinto details.. tok abt too many tingy liao.. frm ghost to frenz to ...too mani lar.. den after they left went out wif family for dinner.. coz my mum n dad goin out so dunid to go grandma hse.. i went home lor.. watch tv n rot.. by 10 i tink i slp on the sofa liao lor.. den blur blur.. walk into room.. zz until tis morning 8 bah.. feelin freshed.. so as usual watch tv.. then 10 start doing the compos completed do emaths.. lata gonna study physics lor..

hm.. nuthing to say liao.. wonder why ppl can write so mani tingy bt i cant.. mayb my life is boring..
outta here...

tml annual sppech day.. hai.z. muz wake up early.. hope it will be fun n fast.. lolz..
i promised myself to be no longer concerned or bothered by all tis tingy :)

lights out.. outty here..

hm.. i might be over sensitive.. be tat damn word childish is really getting irritating.. i irritated by ppl whu kept mentionin tat da cold war is sumting childish... ppl kept mentionin tat tis tingy is childish wanting it to end quickly.. in da 1st place does it concern you.. tink twice thrice b4 u start giving you coment.. although ive gt no right to stop you.. suits u


im outta here.. dinner..
tmr is another day :)

latest update nicoll highway.. da road caved in.. dangerous.. sia
latest update on the cold war(dunno whu named it) .. i cant be bother so.. to make thing end.. sweetly.. n wif a smile.. i admit.. it is my fault.. dun point fingers at others only.. me..

today sch i damn boring.. singh gave us a weird survey.. dun wanna go into details.. den lit.. i realised majority of the bois.. noe wad is happenin in the class.. zhen hao.. said we frenz for 4 yrs.. liao.. den tell him wad happen.. i really dunno wad to say.. juz wanted to say i noe her for 4 yrs too.. i dun even understand her well until tis very moment.. i push myself to de limits to prevent.. the tears frm rolling.. i wanna let ppl noe tat..i am not tat weak. although when i was 1st given the attitute.. i cried.. wads goin.. on.. haiz.. nvm.. tomorrow wud be a betta day..

lesson learnt today.. nv read other blog.. i went to shifah n wenting's blog.. n realised everiting seems to be my fault.. but.. i still wasnt told wad the actual reason it ish.. sum childish stuff.. i lost a friend whom i noe for 4 yrs.. juz coz of sum rubbish.. in a few months time graduatin but.. i realised to solve all probs i had to admit it is my fault.. coz.. but.. wads wrong.. wad did i do wrongly.. i am lost.. misunderstandings.. lyk in hist we alwayz learn there muz be a cause to conflicts.. wad is the cause den. i really wanna noe..

lifez.. gettin boring.. today.. nat realised tat sumting ish goin wrong.. btw us.. so approach me.. ask wad happen.. but i din explain to complicated.. today speech day full dress.. my section leader cum cousin.. din tell me muz wear full 'u' had to rush home to change.. sianz.. tired.. den parade we screw up the Hawaii 5-0.. lucki others was fine.. tml got hist(elect) common test.. i suppose ish in the hall.. sianz.. tired....

Wad's your take on backstabbers? Those whom you thot were treating you genuinely and showing total sincerity but were actually just sharpening their knives along e way, waiting for a chance to prick you in the back.

I stole this from Kelvin's blog! (my bro)

The last thing you:

1.said- "bye" to iveek
2.ate- peach
3.watched on TV or film- Advertisement
4.listened to (music wise)- Cyndi latest album
5.bought (clothes wise)- top frm lvl one
6.bought (CDs wise)- since mp3 ish created i haven been buying
7.downloaded off the net ? - mp3.. Nelly Furtado -Try
8.played on (computer game wise)- nah..
9.drank- Coke
10.wrote on msn- Cya
11.won- nuthingg
12.wore- a orange esprit- tee
13.brushed (teeth or hair)- Hair.
14.drew- I don't draw.
15.said that made you feel happy- Why would I say something to make myself feel happy? Urm, "oh my gort" because I was pissed off
16.didn't mean to say but did- i am angry wif her
17.really regret- not toking..to..
18.did that was very embarrassing- I don't know?
19.saw in the cinema- eRm.. Hauted Mansion ?
20.tidied up- My room. I do that everyday.

The last person you?
21.talked to- My mum.
22.talked to on the phone- Iveek
23.rang- Mammy
24.kissed- ....no one
25.said I love you to and meant it (if ever)- ...no one
26.got angry with- Half the world and the person him/herself knows it.
27.bitched about behind their back- I don't want to say bitch because I was being truthful, nonetheless, people call that bitching and it's the person in question from question 26.
28.txted- erm.. cant remember
29.cried about- being shown an attitute
30.had a crush on- N.A.

The last time you?
31.slept- last nite
32.got angry- This morning.
33.were happy- Just now, after i suddenly felt i wanst lonely
34.were sad- Sometime last week
35.cried- 7 days ago.
36.loved someone- i am still lovin my family
37.ate something- Just now.
38.drank something- Just now.
39.stroked an animal- Too long for me to remember.
40.went abroad- Last December

The last place you?
41.went on holiday- M'sia.. i suppose tat ish holiday
42.went shopping- Town.
43.were part from next to ur computer- my room
44.would ever like to be- Nowhere.
45.ate out at- Breeks
46.went and didnt want to be- Marina South. kite flying ish borinn
47.went and got told off for breaking rules- I don't break rules and even if I do, somehow I just don't get told off. Don't ask me why or how.
48.broke the law- I jay-walked?
49.kissed someone- no one..
50.hit someone (if ever)- puched ruizhen.lolzz


today.. sch was boring.. i suppose im gonna flunk my lit test.. had chinese test too.. diff sia..
nuthin much to say..

im outty... dinner den study tml emaths test.. wish me luckk !~

orite.. monday blues. over.. today ish tuesday.. hm nuthing special.. juz tat mr.singh i suppose back to his usual funni self.. but.. wad he said was.. serious.. yet funny.. he tok abt there was a few cleaners.. out of boredom.. decided to haf sum fun.. one of them squeez da water pipe tingy into anothers anus.. n on the water flow.. causing the man do die.. coz. the intestine all messy.. digusting sia.. tis old man(singh)

as usual tues. is chinese infocus.. finally had a decent tok wif shifah (i suppose) its been a long time.. since we last tok i sort of finally.. noe the reason to the.. friend-friend.. tingy.. i suppose it ish my fault.. shldnt be too close to ani of my frenz..
--> lesson learnt.. aniwae.. dun wanna tok too much abt tis'

lunch break.. kj asked beth wanna watch movie.. dunno wad she say.. den kj ask me.. say ask me keep beth accompany.. at tat moment i really felt weird.. i din noe wad to ans... can sumone tell me the ans.. ... sianzz..

dinner time.. outty here

The long weekend is over in a blitz, time to mellow down the party mood and prepare to deal with the loads of stuff dis comin week!

tis morning as usual woke up at 6.30.. die my ear ish swollen.. yap u din read wrongly it ish swollen.. there is a pimple-like tingy grwing on my left ear.. n mind u.. it is bringin me.. irritatin pain... wanted to nt go sch.. but unsuccessful in convincing my mum tat it ish.. a tremendous pain.. n i cant hear from my left year.. everiting seemed empty.. as usual.. lesson.. i suppose nuthing special.. happened had amths test n chinese letter writing test.. den.. suppose to hav a lit test.. but.. who noe.. msleong.. changed it to wed.. or.. i tink.. it had been plan to be on wed.. but dunno.. whu msg n say.. mon.. aniwae.. doesnt really matter..... sch day ended.. with infocus.. eng.. n yap as usual.. i walked.. home.. :)

reached.. home.. in real pain.. n the pain killer isnt working on my ear... my mum.. came with a pin wanting to burst my pimple like ting.. she gave a lil poke.. n i scream on top of my voice.. told her i dun wanna go sch tml.. she say ok.. but if c.. doc.. worst.. dr.quah is famous for being a messy.. fast lady doc.. if go see.. her poking n bursting n s\ueezing wud be much worst.. so.. i called off the idea of.. not going sch .. really.. hope.. the stronger pain killer.. wud.. work..

This guilt trip that you put me on won't mess me up I've done no wrong .. don't tell me

im outty..

o~rite.. wake up as early as 830... to watch the show i missed last nite.. erm.. da title ish.. criminal investigation IV.. i tink so cant remember.. then the show ended at 10.. my mum woke up.. n breakfast time.. went dwn.. eat.. laksa.. den.. came home.. revise amths.. complete eng n phy.. done.. wanted to watch tv.. as usual again.. but.. no tv was available.. my dad was watching a gold match.. my bro.. is still.. asleep.. so cant use to tv in his room.. my mum.. was also watching guess3 repeat. in her room.. so i am left wif no tv.. accept.. my radio.. so.. on radio.. n relacc..

skipped lunch coz.. was porridge.. at last my turn to watch.. tv my dad was out.. while watchin scent of love.. fell asleep i tink at the touchy part.. so.. muz watch da repeat tonite... hehe.. repeat queenn.lol..

juz finish checking mail.. realised lotsa ppl.. join da hi5.. i tink it ish sumting similar to friendster.. lor..
hm.. i juz did sum crime to d.l a couple of songs.. but whu cares if it is offensive..

i downloaded --

breathe easy by blue
CHORUS
I... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I... can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

100 yrs by five for fighting
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

try by nelly furtado
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

lastly... latest single by avril lavigne.. don't tell me..
Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

ok... reached home.. after a long ride.. on the mrt train.. frm tampines to woodlands n back.. i tink it is kinda worthwhile coz.. the performance.. was.. interesting..

lights off... too tired to continue blogging..

ok.. tis morning woke up at 815.. feelin fresh.. although i had only slept.. at 2+.. which means ish abt 6hrs lor.. perhaps i am use to wakin up.. early.. so.. 815 ish alrite.. tat had breakfast then started doing homewrk.. i did amths eng.. left wif physics(i hate it).. mon got amths test.. haiz... finish studyin.. watch tv.. as usual on sat not much tv prog. so watch chinese mtv51.. n den day dream..lor.. tonite gonna go dwn all da way.. to woodlands da marsling sec.. c band concert.. hope it wub be.. nice...........


wondering.. y am i starting to hate long weekends..

Nelly Furtado : "Try"

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

hm.. today ish good friday.. suppose to be a good.. one.. but to me it ish horrible.. im stuck at home.. coz.. my parents went out.. n my bro ish out for a soccer game as usual.. all alone.. though im suppose to be used to it.. i feel.. bored..
way b4 good friday.. had plans of hangin out wif frenz.. but tis good friday.. isnt good at all.. to me

maybe tis smiley will brighten the day of all those facin same prob as me.. n of coz.. my own day

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'cheerz

change new blog skin... veri reluctant to tok abt wad happen tis few days.. i mean i suppose ish since mon... mani ting happen but i dun understand y it happen n wads wrong with Me.. am i at fault.. yah.. so obvious from tat attitute face...

tis is wad i wrote.. during.. chem lesson on wed.. it was such a quiet lesson... here it goes..
7/4/04 time:11.50am..chem

there is a limit to everiting. i hate tat feeling. im born lyke tis, cant help it. if u dun lyke it u tink i care. i never xpected myself to do tat, but i did it. i tok but i was given an Attittute face. i hate tat damn face..
although i manage to survive thru chem.. poa.. tings were gettin.. worst.. by assembly.. i was away.. frm it.. during.. lunch break.. i exploded.. i could not.. accept the fact tat i had.. to be blamed.. (if i din get the reason wronly).. i cried.. it was totally.. disastrous.. i had my.. frenz.. but.. not it.. .. i control.. myself n tried luffin.. thru.. it.. at nite while studyin for hist test lipink.. msg.. me ask wad.. happen.. then i tink for awhile.. i dunno wad to reply.. coz. i am too confuse. for wrds.. i juz replied.. cannt tahan the attitute.. she gave me.. a super duper reply.. cant remember xactly.. but ish sumtin lyke tis.. dun cry over sumone who dun care for u.. sumone who care for u wun make u cry...



I feel like I'm living the worst day I feel like you're gone And every day is the worst day ever...Simple Plan

a.t.t.i.t.u.t.e

hm... yesterday.. nv go sports day.. go to da.. bonkers tingy.. dun really wana go in detailss...
after tat.. went home.. bath.. out.. i go chiong.. at my cousin's chalet.. my cousin's son's(tanson) one yr old bday ..really wanted to chiong n hav fun.. but.. reached there.. sianz.. all around.. babies. i mean younger than me lor.. the 'oldest' there ish lyk one pri2.. iam.. lyke.. at least twice their age..n my.. older cousins.. werent there sianz.. .. forget to say.. da chalet at east coast da costa sands.. lor.. den.. shocked again.. coz.. ish.. buffet no bbq.. which.. means.. after eating.. NUthing to do.. liao.. hmp.. den decided.. to bring.. cute lil' boy rayden.. out.. for.. a walk.. we.. walk ( i mean still baby had to carry) one big round.. juz to get out of costa sands.. then went to beach.. lor.. sad rite.. walkin at beach with a 1+ years old baby.. den to my horror walk walk.. rayden.. actually slp without.. me knowin.. so had to go back lor.. den around.. 10 plus.. after a long.. day.. i beg my dad.. to go back.. so.. we went home.. n i drop dead on my bed.. zz..

tis mornin woke up @ 8+.. usual mornin my laze around 1st lar.. watch tv.. den go do.. lit homewrk.. den slp lor... coz.. still tired.. den wok up for lunch.. n i continue.. with my sunday's laze

hm.. today... sch end early.. means.. short sch day.. singh during last period gave us yet another cme talk! he wrote an eqn on da board.. Success= 1% inspiration + 99% perspiration... dotz.. wonder did i heard it wrongly.. or.. wad.. bluurr..

tml is sch annual sports.. siao sia.. dis yr.. in da afternoon.. 130.. when the sun is.. soooo bright.. aniwae.. tml.. nt going.. coz. going to da.. Tp.. the BonkersIII tingy.. hope it wud be fun.. hehe..




outta' here