woo.. its been a long time since i last post.. jux re-read my last post.. hm.. realli too serious liao bah..
aniwae.. 2 more main paper..2 minor wans (mcq la)... n everiting is over...
i mentalli prepared for the upcoming events after o's .. haha i nid a BreaK.. HolidAy..MoViEs.. i missed too mani interestin wan.. Incredibles( i noe i seem childish).. Shuttle..
ive also got lots of shoppings i wan.. shoes.. shirts.. cds.. wow.. the list wun stop.. mp3 player.. hair dye.. lolxxx

hm.. today history paper.. heng i studied germany.. nazi lor..
i was kinda very much distracted during todays paper..
i was so irritated by the shakin of legs!!!.. ppl lik luq n a sec5 guy.. my fingers were flying.. becox of the shortage of time.. n the shakin make tings worst.. jux wondering if they were anxious ?> lolx.. or.. jux bored.. mayb too long nv.. sit in hall take paper.. so distracted lor..

i finished the paper like 10mins b4.. so i spend my time.. after checking day dreaming lor..
n i was wondering if.. aniwans fingers/hand move faster than ur brain tinks.. (i mean during exams)... i dun.. my fingers always lag wan.. then by the time i finish writing.. i forget wads next.. or do anione fingers/brain move same time.. .. aniwae.. jux sum stoopid tinkings of mine..

qn: is my blog too jay-ish..

wooow..

Jay..

while crossing the road i hate waiting for the traffic light
while waiting for bus i hate standing alone
life seems to be having things tat we nid to 'wait'...

few more days to the Day..

tis few days have been raining.. n sum weird stuff came to my mind..
before the heavy rain.. dark clouds usually will start gathering .. isnt it jux like b4 exams.. we start studying n all the notes, formula will start gathering by our tiny brain..
when it finally rains isnt is jux like during the exams we start writing out wad we hard memorise..
however, have u ever study too hard tat u jux feel like crying.. haix jux cry.. when the clouds get to heavy it will jux rain jux like after studying to hard.. the tears jux roll dwn suddenly..
but bare in mind.. after rain there will b sunshine.. after crying pick up the bks n continue mugging...

... i tink i am toking to myself.. but i have yet to reach the extent of crying to relieve 'stress'...
how i wish i can jux cry so tat i will feel better.. being too strong at tis pt of time.. is veri tiring..
but way b4 i start crying.. i really gotta continue mugging..
wooosh.. how i wish.. my thunderstorm had ended.....

time check : 08:13pm
yeAh.. hoMe aLone.. i wud be officially home AlonE now.. My paRents are Off to geNting For the nexT feW dayx... n my bro sErving NS.. so will OnLi b Back Tml.. afTerNoon.. but aCtualli there ainT muCh diff.. im Used to BeinG aLone..


............. eNjoyIng.. fOod.. tv... SnAcKs.. ComP...

:-)

haix.. sumhow.. sumone alwaes hav a similar blogskin as mine.. so i change to a super duper simple.. baby wan.. lor..

morning~.. jux came back frm breakfast at mac.. i was going home myself as my mum went to the market.. to my horror.. there ish a 'stretcher' for the coffin.. right at the frnt of the lift.. lucki no coffin.. if not i gonna faint lor.. i was all alone.. surrounded wif mani malays.. so i assume.. is a malay lor.. it is realli very freaky cox.. i dunno wad to do.. lucki the lift door was open.. i checked tat theres no one..[coast clear] i rushed into the lift.. praying tat the door open wifout anione.. outside.. reached 10 floor.. door open.. i was super stunned the whole 'lobby' is crowded.. i ran.. YES ran.. out of the lift.. wif my eye almost 3/4 close lor.. scared i c tings i shd nt c.. heng the staircase right bside the lift.. i ran dwn lor.. curiosity heng din kill cat.. i turn back to c.. heng nuthing.. all ppl.. going into da lift.. i chiong into my house lock door.. lor.. called my mum to tell her..

i am scaredy...~

The Outsiders II

woosh.. jux finish watching the 1st episode.. of the outsiderII.. basically.. the 1st episode was jux screened last nite @ taiwan.. today i get to watch lor.. hm.. since i luv part I definitely.. partII is as nice.. erm.. i tink tis is 1st time .. idol show the second part is not continuation lor.. aniway also cant continue.. lead actor.. dead.. the partII is showing.. wad happen in the middle of the show.. cox in partI got one part. they skip.. n say Four years later.. so now partII is abt wad happen during.. the 4yrs lor.. interestin bah~.. according to rzhen it is kinda lyk.. infernal affairsI,II n III lor.. hm.. abt part 2.. additional actors.. lor.. got xiaozhu.. n a new gurl bah dunno whu.. aniwae she haven appear yet..
tis show is a must-see (hehe wrd list).. if u lykex undercover lar.. n esp paikia.. gangsters.. lolx..
also the theme song.. is new wan no more the Bu Gong Ping.. tis time is xiaozhu sing... 灰色空間 lor.. realli beri de ganggang.. wan lor..

事情過去，
一切看似風平浪靜，
但每個人心中卻都已烙下難以抹滅的傷痕。
而明天究竟會將他們帶到哪裡？
沒有人有把握，
在黑社會的日子裡，
每一天 ......
都像最後一天 ......

today go.. sch get back results.. lor.. still kinda satisfied lor.. cox i tink all got improve bah.. amths.. frm 20+ i get...36+... hehe nearer to 40/80 mah.. eng jux nice.. lor.. betta then midyr.. i fail.. emaths.. i tink my results went dwn.. but 59/80... ok lor.. .. nuthing else lor.. cheryl n sharil both nv cum.. so no papers.. deena cant possibly finish marking.. so did sum.. exercise on turnover...etc. lor

woosshh.. one more day to go b4 prelims finalli over.. tmr gonna hav poa paper.. lor.. i screwed up my paper1 jux passing.. so mux wrk harder.. but i aint studying.. hehe..

today's paper i screwed up my amaths as usual.. nuthing special.. sci.paper1.. i tink mrlai is jux crazy.. argh~....

today.. is mid autumn festival.. my parents out at sum temple's celebration so im HOME ALONE.. im jux a loner whu prefers to b alone.. den hang out.. wif my cousin's kids at the temple.. im tooo old to 'play' wif dem..

ive jux change my blog skin.. hehe once again cox realised sumone's got a similar wan.. got i simple blogskin.. ive jux spent.. a couple of mins browsing the webbie n chosen tis.. rambling~~

hehe my fav show The Outsider is having a second part n is showing soon in taiwan.. so i get to d.l it.. haha..

outty here...

hm.. one week nv blog liao.. tis week was pretty fast over.. started wif prelims el n mt paper 1.. tues n thurs i din go sch.. i participated in the record breaking for the no. of absentees.. highest i tink is 21 absent bah.. super rite.. aniwae today had 1st sci pract. of my life.. feelin very nervy thruout the entire paper.. lighting of match was the worst but i tink im jux lucki cox.. i strike once hehe.. phy was pretty easy.. chem abit more complicated.. but overall i tink it is fine bah.. monday prelims officially start tml gonna go study lor.. if not alone at home also beri boring.. keke..

im outty here... gonna be busy the nxt few weeks bah.. no more blogging..~~!! mux chiong.. but dunno if i can make it.. haixx~>...

jux got home frm pasir ris park.. had our cip tis morining.. we were jux wasting time.. we went feed of fish at the Kid's Kampong.. nuthing much happened.. there is supposed to be a bbq.. but.. leave me alone.. lolx..


s.l.a.c.k

ripcurl

boringx... my mum's out at wrk.. my dad's out.. bro back at camp.. i'm all alone.. i jux did sumting i felt proud.. i fixed my webcam.. its been long dead.. since my bro reformat the comp.. i brought it back to life.. basically by jux reinstalling.. hehe no big deal after all..

today is officially the 1st day of the Sept holis.. 'o's cuming.. did a bit of maths n studied eng's format...nuthing much..

tink i mux go complain the renovation at my house.. is realli getting irritating.. its been a long time.. the entire void deck seemed to have been removed..

im gonna be out tml n on wed.. wonder when do i hav the time to study..

since my webcam is wrking.. ive became.. self obsessed.. hehe taking pics non stop.. lolx.. my bro is a great cap chooser.. his caps are real nice...

im outta here..........

im gonna miss u..

almost.. 1 week nv blog liao.. lotz of tingy happened but din realli noe where to start... i'll juz fast fwd to sat..
-28.08.2004
our band concert at SCH..
to anione who went to the concert n felt it is a total screwed up tingy.. im sorry for making u waste ur money.. if u can play well y dun join the band.. if u can sing well y not join the choir.. b4 u make those.. rubbish comment tink twice.. if u were there not for the concert then make sure u dun make negative comments.. im not being petty n not accepting the comments but.. sum comments.. are jux met NOT TO BE MAKE..
the ending of tis concert represents our final performance as a band member.. n after tis we wud official step dwn.. yap i felt sad.. c pple crying but.. i jux din.. saw ms[now mdm] ho.. whu came for the concert too.. jux gotta sae among all tcher i/c .. she jux rox.. being a ex-band member she jux understands how we feel..
the next few days nuting impt happened..

~national day..red

yet another day has past... tink after blogging mux sleep.. yeah i noe is earli.. but i tink i mux get more rest 1stly to be mentalli prepared for tml final practise.. n also my throat is cozing me lots of pain.. n pray it will jux b betta tml..

today sch.. was normal.. quieter though she is arnd.. had foto taking so miRACLe the whole class turn up.. after i record breaking tingy yesterday wif 10 ppl absent.. lesson as usual are boring.. tml gonna b worst rzhen not going to sch.. sianx.. how i wish i can b away for jux once every 2-3 wks.. haix.. NEVER.. i mux fall realllli sick b4 there is a break haix..

B.A.D- 我的错
飞机已离开机场 你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘 忘了我们爱的过往 忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强 从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲 还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样 不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次 回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事 怎么做才能够停止 后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆 为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候 总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错 错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心还是爱你

although a old song.. i jux ..lyke it..~

keep quiet~
could u please shut up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
could u shut ur irritating nonsense~~~~~~~~
#&*& off.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...........

actualli.. today sch nuthing much happen.. morning 1st period lai period.. he briefli mentioned the ghost story on channelU which i missed it coz the pm's rally was reallli a very long wan..den did springfield's paper lor.. pe still playing the same tingy.. sharil nv cum deena took over for a period n then another weird tcher who refuses to sit dwn kept walking ard.. came to relief.. den amths.. i forgot to brin all da books.. but it din realli matter.. den lit.. did new poem.. den leong played the song lor.. diff versions kinda interesting.. then emths did vectors.. mt.. there is gonna b a combinations during mt.. e4 n e5.. then infocus 2 hrs of leong.. but lucki the 1st hr she isnt ard.. left us alone to do discussions lor..

ivy thanx for tellin me the virus tingy u r refering.. however.. if u fear tings gonna happen to ur COMPUTER.. den dun cum in to my blog.. itz not that i m nt welcuming u.. but.. nvm..


dottsss..

hm.. today is chinese the 七夕情人節 .. which means valentine's day.. chinese version wan lar.. then got a long story abt tis 'legend'..

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[你还爱我吗 一直好想问你这句话 却又怕 听到你真实的回答.......]

hm.. jux came home frm my granny hse.. nuthing much happened played wif my.. 4yrs old cousin stefanie.. mini bowling.. lolz.. pple are gettin more n more inventive..
morning.. woke up @ 8am skipped eng ct.. abt i 915 meet rzhen then go sch for ct's ct (phy) lolz.. den after tat go band.. sectional till 2plus.. den decorate the photo album.. den go home lor.. sianx.. den zzz

ps: 7more days... to the DAY~~!!

outty here.. :)

tgif... haizx.. every friday i can reached home by 1250 but today got 'band'.. kinda farewell to our sections juniors.. nuthing much bought them sum gift wrote them a card.. n i reached home onli at3!!!..

today lesson was boring.. singh went thru mock exam.. n there was tis qns abt HISTORY.. n he say tis wrd is SEXISt.. coz if women were in 'power' at tat time it wud have been HERSTORY..!! is he gettin senile..~~.. den was mt tcher nt here so.. listen md till fall asleep.. then sharil period tok abt WW2 lor.. then lit.. did poem phy got back test paper.. n sch ended..

nuthing interesting happened until i reached the lift of my block.. there was tis stupid advertisement tis is how it goes.. "Match-making session. Free registration. $100 for one successful matchmaking..".. oh my~~ wad is tis man..!!!!.. matchmaking.. ~~ lolzz..

lalalala... im glad to be home..~ outty here..

today.. i almost slag the whole day.. morning 1st period.. mdm loh nt here den jux did the paper lor.. den followed by singh.. nuthing much.. juz sum proNUNciation tingy.. then phyics.. did waves n light... sharil lesson did mindmapping.. dong wasnt here so supposed to do poa but.. i din realli wanna do jux listening to songs n c da kj 'bully' van by.. pullin her.. *ra*trap.. hehe.. den tink luqman was also too bored tat he kinda lyke started dancing.. the 'rainbow' n 'catching of star' dance moves... funni sia.. after poa.. amaths !!! mdm low isnt here so mdm foo took over..the whole class.. did sum trigo qns.. den tats the end of sch 4 me.. wif sum other taking oral.. mdm low nt here we decided to skip infocus.. den had lunch @ mac.. den headed home.. nuthing much liao.. help lipin.. upload songs into her mp3 den now bloggin lor..

ps: latest song on blog : Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson.

................outta here...~

time check..406pm.. im home.. !! coz.. oral mah.. so go home.. erm.. oral was fine.. but as a 'fast talker' everyting seem to be happening in a breeze.. i started to get kinda worry when i realise lping n ivy din had ani prompts.. but aniwae.. prompting doesnt mean u r wrong.. den i still tink i was realli to fast.. but its over.. to late..

sch was fine.. the common test jux sux.. i did 3 qns.. den emaths mdm loh not here so did the paper lor.. nuthing much singh did compre.. buckchwee started teaching.. poa.. did non-trading tingy.. basically tats all.. nuthing interesting.. ..

outta here.
almost forget.. michelle came back alive.. during eng-compre session.. i am MELISSA>>...!!!!

erm.. one week nv post liao.. but actually.. nuthing much to say.. ive got a b3.. for mt.. at 1st wasnt feelin tat bad.. juz reatake lor.. then.. that idiotic buck chwee.. say can get a.. make me feel worst.. sumore ask how i was feelin.. stoopid.. if noeing i can get a but din.. wud i b feelin very happy.. weird guy.. den today he treated the class wif kfc.. finish eating.. go home.. lor.. reached home liao.. lp called.. say mdm yasmin cuming to mark attendance.. but din care lor.. since rzhen ywen jieyi.. all went back home liao.. so jux stayed home lor.. den after tat.. realised it was zul marking the attendance.. monday bluez.. maths maths.. sianz..

im outta here...

today decided not to go band becoz sore eyez juz okie lor.. den got excuse cca.. coz sore eyes spread not by eye contact.. but go band blow.. a lot of saliva lor.. den scared sabo others kena..
hm.. tok abt wad happen yesterday.. wear red go sch lor.. 1st time national day i nv.. perform.. den c juniors perform.. although i was very far away lar.. but can hear lor.. soft soft nia den sing home lar.. n the 'who are u my country' song then the observation tingy ended much later so.. onli left the art tingy no quiz lor.. den did not contribute coz im not artistically incline lor.. den 10 sch end.. go long john had lunch wif wp yuwen rzhen... den go music junction buy qi li xiang lor .. den dey wanna take neoprints so join dem lor.. queue for beri long lor.. the whole taking tingy took us abt 45 mins lor.. pengx.. cant believe i was waiting.. aniwae i din queue wp n rzhen did the queuing me n yuwen stood outside wait.. lor.. they stared blankli arnd lor.. see patches of red almost every where.. mani sch also wear the same pattern the shirt lor.. den go home liao.. lor..
immediately open jay cd n play lor.. i tink my fav is 借口 lor.. jay wrote both the melody n lyrics.. den lyke wad rzhen say.. the song sounded lyke jolin wan.. i hear liao tink 将军 sounded very much lyke jolin's 海盗 which is also composed by jay...
today gona be a boring day lor.. sianzx..

tml start gonna be a kinda long holiday.. but got loads of hmwrk lor.. e&a maths.. poa.. sianz.. away frm sch for 2 days.. nuthing much change.. juz suddenli felt the load of homewrk a bit too much.. coz the last 2 days have be slacking not doing aniting much.. today sch nuting much interesting.. bah.. oral for eng.. maths do practice paper.. phy.. mryeo n a unknown tcher came cheryl away for course.. sharil lesson did the sbq.. amths is differentiation..i juz hate it man.. poa.. did test wifout learning aniting.. know nuts abt it.. but wif deena n lipink help.. tink it is gonna be fine.. slc plc capital assets.. infocus amths lor..
tml gonna b wearing the hangten red tee to sch.. tink gonna be kinda relax.. den gonna buy jay chou album lor.. everyting can 'pirately' d.l but jaychou cd is still a muz buy lor.. nuthing much to say.. gonna go watch survivor's law(ch55).. zzz

imm outtaa hereee..

Jay - Qi Li Xiang

斗鱼
为友谊两肋插刀
为友谊放弃爱情
把友情放在比生命更重要的位置
友情与爱情混沌交杂
正义与道德纠葛重叠
用生命去谱写的青春记事

soundtrack frm the show..
Lydia.
不公平.
放弃.

11.42am.. im at home.. coz sore eyes lor.. haix.. stay at home really boring. juz finish watching the outsiders.. sad ending.. lor.. but aniwae was i nice show lor.. nuthing to do.. now unloading song into md.. lor.. slag.. arnd..

outta here..

yesterday go c my bro take wan.. beside is my mama

sunday.. today went to hendon comp visit my brother.. its been 10 days since i last saw him.. nuthing much changed.. ive seen wif lesser hair b4 he get enlisted.. ive seen him in army during his ncc days.. i was juz very interested in their bunk.. at home he sleeps on the comfy queen size water bed.. nw in ns he slp in a single bed.. wifout aircon.. onli .. fan.. aniwae he is cuming back on the 7th.. i realised my bro kinda strong.. both in terms of physically n psychologically.. i saw tall guys crying but nt my bro.. i saw veri .. thin guys.. wanting to giv up on the commado training.. hm..
finish d.l the outsiders ive watch till the 11 episode.. getting more interesting.. cant wait to finish watching..
.....outty

The Outsiders.. ppl with scv56 its a muz watch hehe

shan zi.. cool guy isnt he..

hm.. 1 more hr b4 i finish downloading the show The Outsiders.. although kinda pirate.. but scv56 only showing twice a week for juz mere 45mins.. i juz cant wait to finish watching it.. becoz after the the reading synopsis oh my.. really need to watch.. sumore the 3 lead actors tall n handsome.. hehe.. esp..shanzi..

ps: haven study physics.. im sorry Cheryl.. :''(

tis is jay chou ok!! gothic.. dark eye liners.. cant wait to c the music video..

Tgif... today is ms ong (my chinese tcher when i was in sec1 n 2) last day in sch.. according to others she is leaving to go taiwan n study.. wish her luck bah..
nuthing much i can recalled abt wad happened tis week.. which is beri important.. juz stuff quarrel over small stuff.. betta nt say aniting.. hehe~..

Racial Harmony Day...

hm.. a few days nv blog liao .. start frm friday bah.. sch was as usual to me boring.. ended sch with cheryl's muliple choice qns with almost all answer [C]heryl.. hehe.. after sch went watch Sisters.. ppl im a scaredy cat dun make me watch tis kind of disgusting plus sound effect super loud the ask me watch.. i got weak heart sia.. aniwae i rate it 5/5 for its horror(to me lah)..story line ish a combination of ju-on n jian gui(if nv remember wrongly).. after the show go home lor.. den slag watch loads of taiwan entertainment show i dwnload lor.. saturday.. morning mock exam lor.. eng okok amaths nuthing much to say i noe my standard.. den my super duper ulcer givin me probs so decide nt to go band.. pass angeline her present.. during break HAPPIE BIRTHDAY~... den after mocks.. go lunch den home lor.. as usual.. continue watch the d.l shows.. hehe i even d.l energy latest show.. shiok..~ funny. watch until 1+ den go slp.. then today.. continue watching lor.. hehe.. i used to be or shud say i am still a tv freak.. now wif the comp solely to me.. d.l mani shows becum.. online tv freak bah.. my parents go relative hse warming so alone.. means. fun.. tv.. comp.. tv comp.. books.. leave it for sch day bah.. weekends.. muz solely juz for relaxation.. tml.. predicting.. maths maths n more maths.. holy **** .. getting bored by all the repeatative.. tings i am doing.. oral oral oral.. maths maths.. ~ arghhh..
 
listening to landy's - wish me happy birthday.. (zu wo sheng ri kuai le)...
 
rotting.. ~~~~~~~

juz now 7.55pm on 933fm got jay new song qi li xiang.. hm.. very jay-ish style..  tink is considered a love ballad.. though i din really listened carefully to the lyrics.. the dj say is a poem.. lor.. tink tis is jay 1st time single is ballad.. unlike the last few album.. beri complicated the composing the song as the 1st single..
8.35pm my bro call back.. frm camp.. tink my mum sounded kinda worry.. coz 1day b4 he enlist he sick.. lor..  coughing.. then.. he in same bunk as his ffu pal.. tatz all i heard abt their conversation.. sumore got tok abt medicine tingy.. do camp forbid taking of medicine.. not sure heard sumting lyke tat.. the i realised even my granny also beri worry for my bro.. cos he the youngest male grandchild mah..

dream snoopy hse~~

21072004 .. the day my brother officially get enlisted.. racial harmony day too..
morning rainning so heavily so decided to change into the bajukurong in sch.. look weird but no choice have to wear coz nv brin sch shoe..
the next time im gonna c my bro is on the 7/8 i suppose or national day bah.. tat means abt 3 weeks time lor.. tis morning.. a few of his ffu were at our hse.. gonna send him to hendon camp lor.. my parents went too lor.. then mum told me.. he is in the same 'grp' as his ffu buddy lor.. so gd for him..
erm.. the computer is in his room n now it looks so empty.. curtains off.. bedsheets gone.. floor mopped..  even the comp i using hav juz been wiped..
ps: wish him luck for his commando training.. and his styled hair.. is gone even b4 enlistment coz he scared they anihow cut so cut 1st.. hehe

hm. time really flies.. i still remember the time with the existence of casettape..always listening to Hanson's Mmmbop..  In an mmmbop they're gone. In an mmmbop they're not there  wow.. tat songs was released in 1997.. so it was lyke 7 yrs ago..  tat time i was still using radio to play casettape.. why suddenly mention Hanson's itz becoz their latest album Underneath is out !..  oh my the youngest Hanson's brother is already 19.. the last time i heard their song was.. This Time Around.. You can't say I didn't give it I won't wait another minute We're on our way this time around..  and mind you tat song is also abt 4 yrs ago tat it was released.. the first single i heard frm their lastest album.. is Penny and Me.. juz love.. their usual rock style...  Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies Close our eyes pretend to fly It's always Penny and me tonight.. 

losing my grip
why should i care?
cos you weren't there when i was scared when i was so alone
you need to listeni'm stuck in a trip i'm losing my grip
and i'm in this thing alonewhy should i care?
if you don't care then i don't care
we're not going anywhere
 
Losing my Grip ~ Avril Lavigne

violence thots.
i feel tis compulsive urge to punch my fist thru a plane of glass. screaming my head of f no longer appeals to me. sumtimes it is a bliss to be ignorant, or to feign ignorance and ignore ur inner voice. pretence hav nv been alluring..

jay!!

kunda .. hehe my fav..~

Energy!!

"Don't Wanna Think About You"

Can you leave me here alone now
I don't wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be
Always doin what you say

Cuz I'm tryin to get through today
And there's one thing I know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I Don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothin
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
Cuz I know
I don't wanna think about you

Don't wanna think about you

When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cuz I won't wait
Cuz you won't change
And you'll always be this way

Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothin
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time I know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away
Run away
Running as fast as I can
Run away
Run away
I'll never come back again
Run away
Run away

Don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
Don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna talk this one out

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out (figure this out)
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothin
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down (bring me down)
Won't let you shut me out (shut me out)
This time I know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you
Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you
Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you

hmmp.. reached home.. at 7+ after an evening swim.. at the crwded tampines swimming complex.. mayb is holi.. so the place.. is dirty n flooded wif ppl.. or mayb coz.. i too long nv.. go alwyz swimming is angeline ask me along go nsrcc..
yesterday go class chalet.. bbq lor.. quite a no. of pple.. den the usual chalet stuff bowling, daidee n cycling.. den during bbq der was a 'fight' btw ivy n jaren.. dunno wad happen lor.. den ivy muz be pissed off.. n juz stormed of angrily.. i really meam STORM.. she stormed on my feet b4.. walking away.. den arnd 1115 my bro came the fetch me home.. n gave shifah a ride home.. couldnt really slp after bathing coz.. ivy gave me a call.. i ask where she is.. she say she dunno.. n juz HANG UP... she onli msg me at 1+ tell me.. wad happen(shant go into details) but still couldnt slp.. then watch tv.. till abt 2 lor.. b4 slping..

ps: 1) yesterday i had a hard time plucking up courage to wear da contacts.. lucky no negative comments.. hehe..

2) my bro is counting the no. of days b4 he get enlisted.. 26..25..ohoh..fast..!

argh.. im so bored.. ive been sitting in frnt of the comp since 7.. nuting to do.. repeatedly listening to the same song by Maroon 5 - This love.. tis morning wake up at 730 coz 830 muz report 4 band lor.. as usual practice the concert stuff.. a few ex seniors came back.. band ended at abt12.. went back home.. slag infrnt of the tv.. den beri tired go slp.. lor.. 5 den wake up.. again tv.. den use comp..


ps: 18/6 zhenhao's birthday ,yesterday was beth birthday..n today is ruizhen.. Happie BirThdaY..


rottingg.....

realised sum one else had a similar blog so.. decided to change skin lor. i found tis terrific skin which suits my identity as CUTE..ugly bt adorable.. :þ

Chalet : Me Bro n Frenz

chalet: cousins- Madeline Terence Derek n Cheryl

Chalet: me jasmine derek

hm. 10 daes nv blog liao.. while the geog n sum lit students are away at bintan..i was away too.. but still spore.. went to my bro chalet.. his 20th bday was on da 14jun.. n chalet is frm 13-15.. i tink tis family gathering wud be the last b4 my bro's enlistment in july. then gonna have a 4 mths cut according to the new 'law'.. the chalet was a bungalow type wan at tanah merah?/changi?.. juz noe ish country club..

we check-in on sun noon.. slacking arnd.. with minature mahjong.. n daidee.. supposed to go swimming.. bt sunday mah.. the pool flooded with ppl.. then at nite. bbq lor.. then bday cake was out.. my bro frenz n our relative were there n did the usual stuff of singing n cutting of cake lor.. .den went arcade wif my cousins coz bored.. then went back .. then slp at 3 i supposed.. den nxt day awake by 7+ super.. my bro n frenz nv slp.. watching euro.. then i suppose sum of them played mahjong the whole nite.. n early morning.. karaoke session.. singing jay chou songs.. then we (angeline, madeline, derek n lester)..had breakfast.. den the big bros were away our turn to sing lolz.. abt 10 wanna swim liao.. coz mon morning nobody.. but the big pool is washing so all of us including the big bros were at the small pool.. den awhile later the pool was ready.. all chiong in lor.. the had water polo(captain's ball) game.. n there were 19 ppl in da pool.. play under the hot sun till abt 12.. my aunt came she cooked lunch 4 us.. after lunch.. 2+ slp til 5.. then while slping.. i cant belive sum big bros were still playing mahjong.. think they really mahjong freak.. den bbq lor.. watch tv.. supposed to stay one more nite.. but felt bored coz derek wanted to go home.. so went home.. lor.. coz aniwae checking out the next morning.. so the chalet trip ended..

after the chalet.. side effects.. sorethroat.. homewrk nt done due on fri.. haixx

im outty..

happy

crown-ed.. hehe

smiLe

sit dwn

cousins

mel & jas

hm yesterday nv blog so tok abt wad happen yesterday.. meet my cousin at 12.. go dwn town shopping.. n jas,my cousin wanted to c da jolin so stood in the sun 4 abt 1/2 hr to c her.. den frm far i saw lyncia in the queue ( i gt super eye-sight ) n i also saw yufeng.. after jolin finish singing.. cant tahan da heat go heeren.. lor.. outside annex saw wenting.. guess she is there 4 jolin too. then took pic.. wif my cousins.. hehe.. the machines are gettin more interesting.. den.. my uncle came to fetch us.. i went to my jas hse.. her hse at sengkang bt according to her it is as windy as marina south so we went dwn.. to i huge 'grassland' n fly kite.. n it was lyke 10 yrs ago tat i last fly a kite.. but it was really fun..
today.. boring day.. woke up at 10 watch tv nuthing to do.. lata still muz do homewrk.. haiz.. sumore n my bro n cousins went genting+kl.. but im stuck in spore.. coz..of all da toopid lessons..courses..

im outta here...

one week.. of extra lesson ended.. with homewrks.. but there is still one more week to go.. but at least tml.. ish a break.. no lessons..

F.I.R
后乐园

雨淋湿了世界 你站在我面前 爱得太深太想要
你的温度给我依靠 却不能要 放弃了也许才看得到
我从不是你的骄傲
★我走进后乐园中那迷失的一角
再一步就能触碰你的心跳 当我们以为的爱不是一种荣耀 再深的爱也这样 失去了
你还在我身边 但我突然发觉 我们之间的画面
只会变得越来越浅 不够永远
用生命也许才换得到 一次机会深刻拥抱
★我走进后乐园中那迷失的一角
再一步就能触碰你的心跳 我努力往前奔跑 直到天涯海角 却发现还到不了…
在我的后乐园中谁是我的依靠 我相信总有一天我会找到
用我的心去感受拥有爱的美好
我愿意世界为你 就这样 静止了…


im outty..

boring day as usual.. lessons.. amths emths phy chem.. the planner sux man.. one day.. bored with bth sciences n maths.. hm.. at last i bought the f.i.r cd.. reached home.. chiong homewrk.. all singh's lor.. n emths.. cheryl wan.. leave it alone.. dun care.. singh's wrk are boring.. heng complete liao..


buzz off..

hrm.. tis morning woke up at 9 to watch ms universe.. i 'bet' coasta rica will win.. but she lost to australia.. mayb coz australia has betta skin hehe.. then watch tv till 1.. today vesak day mah.. everi yr vesak day mean my ah-ma birthday. coz according to mummy she duno when her bday so.. since vesak dae is holi so.. she 'chose' tis day.. hm.. when reached hse.. CroWded sia.. lots of kids.. really kids sia. i tink age frm 1-7 all have.. i counted almost 10 kids were there.. n i was a giant to dem.. but it was fun 'playing' wif dem.. hehe n wads most impt. these kids are my ah-ma's great grand childen sia.. meaning my cousins are almost all married.. time flies.. time to slp.. although now.. 5 pm nia.. bt.. beri tired.. last nite.. slp at 2+..

lights out.. (still very bright lehx)

long time nv.. post.. since.. last wed.. quite long lar.. juz now.. while sufing net.. came across tis jap brand 6%Dokidoki. wow da clothes.. accessories all beri cute.. even the web itself is cute.. jap stuff cute indeed..how i wish can go there.. 4 a shoppin spree.. hehe~~

i guess my life is totally.. chinese..compo.. compre.. it sux.. ARGH!~~~~~~~~

Disclaimer: This particular comment can b quite vulgar so all y'all kids dat are fuckin under 16 pls proceed no further. I do not wish to see ur mommies and daddies comin after me wit their fuckin parangs and cleavers. Due to vulgarites used it will be edited on a later date.

comment: (*&!@3168#$%^&*(_5408)(*&^!@#$%^&*_I_=-)(*#$%^&*()V_)(1681*&^^%&^$Y%
(edited)
'Holding anger is a poison. It eats u frm inside. We tink tat hating is a weapon tat attcks the person whu harm us. But hatred is a curved blade . And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.'

no wonder shit happens


Name 3 Things You Are Thinking About Now :
1. sleep
2. linkin park concert
3. sleep

Name 3 Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. coke
2. ice tea
3. ice blended wadeva

Last Time You Cried ?
Last.?. i am stronger now..

What are u listening to now?
Mp3.. F.i.R

What Color Socks Are You Wearing ?
I am not wearing anything on my feet now! =D

What's Under Your Bed ?
yet another bed..

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
6 plus in the morning

Current Hair ?
Shoulder length blackish-white..lolz

Current Clothes ?
B.U.M tee with black cotton shorts

Current Desktop Picture ?
adidas 2004 with beckham n a few other guys.. (i share comp wif bro.)

Current Worry ?
the avoiding tingy

Current Hate ?
you!~ hate.. not so stong actually

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
The eyes

Last CD You Bought ?
since mp3 exist harly buy cdz

Favorite Place To Be ?
I guess anywhere with good company will count

Least Favorite Place ?
Anywhere with no proper decent toilets

If You Could Play An Instrument ?
i can play a clarinet

If yes, have u ever been go on stage and win??
I seriously can't recall any!

Favorite Color(s)?
blue, red and white

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
I have not given it a thought yet so i suppose it's a no =D

How Tall Are You ?
164cm

Current Favorite Word/Saying ?
dead...

Favorite Season ?
Spring

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could
speak with?
Brad Pitt..

Favorite Day ?
TGIF friday..

Where Would You Like To Go ?
Switzerland

Favorite Car ?
Mini Cooper

i spent abt 2 days reading.. da book.. in dis bk.. there r 5 lessons learn after meeting each of da person.. of all i tink the most important wan is to learn nt to hate..
quote frm da bk: 'Holding anger is a poison. It eats u frm inside. We tink tat hating is a weapon tat attcks the person whu harm us. But hatred is a curved blade . And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.'
of all da lessons learn.. i tink.. the 1st is most interesting.. No life is a waste. Death doesnt juz take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed. Strangers are juz family you have yet to come to know

i am reading..

hm today gt back lit paper.. i passed.. hehe.. den slag whole day.. reading book.. i tink it was one yr ago tat i sat down wholeheartedly wanting to read a bk.. title 'tuesday with Morrie'.. den today da bk i reading ish by the same auther titled ' the five ppl u meet in heaven'..

wenting.. happie 16th birthday..~

today.. we noe chem,mt n poa.. surprisingly i passed my poa pure luck.. chem.. im..contented with passing.. mt.. since buckchwee emphasize so mani times tat the paper is mark strictly.. i shall also be a lil' contented with.. 12.5/20 for letter n 29/50 for compo.. then lit we watch harry potter.. singh muz be crazy throwing us a ton of homewrk.. lucki its due nxt fri.. assembly ish crime prevention talk.. then singh period slag again.. tml n fri gonna get back all paper.. i really dead for amaths.. haiz

Avril Lavigne "Nobody's Home"

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

the unlucky chapter 13(anger,hatred...) of my life had ended.. hopefully~~.. however, wud there be a partII for the chapter.. whu noes.. im prayin real hard.

I have this quote that I heard once which I really like - "You're born alone, and you die alone, so you better learn to love yourself." I like it, but I think for me, it's more like "You're born alone, and you die alone, so you better learn how to live with yourself." Which I find, is one of the hardest things in the world.Isnt it..

I can be nice to everybody, but tat wud then really be PR and tat makes me a hypocrite, being nice to pple whom I dun like. I try to be civilised to most people even if I don't like them but nice I'm not. I never said I'm nice anyway :)

now, one more day to chiong.. b4 i am free frm all the books.. at least for a week.. b4 the olevel chinese.. to ppl.. catching a movie.. go 4 Troy which is a betta choice.. hehe coz Brad Pitt incredible hot body that adds up the credit? This guy've got muscles.. and yes.. muscles... Lil' hottie Orlando Bloom was a lil disappointing.. mayb becoz of his character..It's a MUST watch! big grin** i dun mind watching it again~~

exam fever few days nv use comp.. den dis whole week.. my hse dwnstair renovations.. sickening.. man.. had to on the radio to max.. in order to concentrate.. today chem paper.. was hopeless.. diff. sia.. others cant remember xactly.. tml emathz paper2 muz do welll.. coz my amaths is hopeless liao.. why am i stuck wif all da books while.. my bro is supposedly happily glued to da tv.. he sae he is hibernating n juz wait till 21 july arrives b4 he get into ns.. tis guy muz b mad..
"From maximum exposure to wheel of fortune to sports centre to spice siblings to serie a highlights to incredible tales to guess guess guess. U name it i've watched it. I tink i've prolly channel-surfed for a couple hundred of times the whole damn day!" extract frm his blog.. enjoying life..

tired... lights out..

rise n shine.. ~~

hmm.. still cant find a perfect blog.. today.. beri guai.. by 1240 i was alread home.. but.. wanna rest b4 start studying.. today.. 1st period maths.. nuthing.. do paper 2.. den singh.. do our own stuff.. deena.. did machinery acct.. sharil.. SEQ.. singh free.. again.. den juz b4 sch end.. ther was a commotion.. class bois start crwding.. by the window.. looking out.. singh joined them.. a boi.. running away frm police.. den handcuffed.. boring day.. now listening to jolin.. i b4 tat lyke the song by her.. 柠檬草的味道 beri sad song..now i fell for the song 倒帶mayb coz.. da composer is my fav jay..
here is lyrics..
倒帶
作词:方文山　作曲:周杰伦
我受够了等待你所谓的安排　说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱　我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带　你给的全是空白　一个人假日发呆　找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外　却一直都进不来　你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀
终于看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白　最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍　你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来　我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来　过去甜蜜在倒带　只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待　被你一次次摔坏　已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白　最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍　你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开...

erm.. since yesterday nv blog.. tok abt wad happen yesterday..
raining almost the whole day.. singh 1st period cme.. tok abt the MPs.. den nuthing interesting lor.. after sch.. interesting.. celebrating amalina n ivy's birthday.. sum when buy cake.. sum of us when buying drink.. had sum 'smashin-of-da-cake-on-the-face' game on the 2 of them.. then 'water fest' started.. raining n we played by the SInk..lolz..
today.. 1st period sharil.. '...' nuting to say.. den chem lar poa. still learning tings.. den singh 'free period' mt.. crappy.. kj was asking sum lame qns.. lyke how to prawn "call" ..ans: hehe..(prawn in hokkien)... buckchwee join in n gave us one.. he said.. there was tis botak man.. tried maby ways finally had 3 strands of hair growing.. but y did he cut of 1 of it... ans: .. to comb his hand center parting.. lol.. lame but funi... i tink tis is really a way to relieve all the exam stress.. den amths mdmlow nv cum.. me rz fatin play..Bingo... den phy slag.. she go tru the past yrs paper. n tats the last time we r gonna c her b4 examx.. after sch.. accompany rz.. go buy perfume.. n toopid..i had tis craze for chocs during phy.. so.. went cheers to buy kinderbueno.. hehe.. i lyke it..~

books.. here i cum.. ~~

ouCh... it huRtss.. today so suay.. P.e 1st period while playing captain's ball.. kena tripped.. fell n had sum bruises n scatches on my knee n left shoulder..n i had a hard knock on my right cheek.. today lesson boring coz.. gt sharil.. is he gettin naggy.. alwayz repeating wad he say.. one-sided view lar.. prejudice.. bias.. tone.. haiz.. de rest of the lesson were as boring..
Wizzdom of The Day..
Love ur enemies, Do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you.. If you love only the ppl who love you.. wad praise should you get.. ?

prob with blogs...
youths should be commended for their diversity of thoughts and courage to air their thoughts and feelings.

due to the advancement in technology, they are able to voice their many views and perspective on the net. however, also, due to the convenience of these channels, many fail to rem that they have to be responsible for what they published. even when it means they are hiding behind the nicknames.
being responsible for one's actions does not only emcompass thinking twice about wat one says, it also means taking into consideration the repercussions of one's words. what will result with all that one published in the fit of anger or etc. it may seem harmless to one, but jus like dropping a small pebble into the pond, it can disrupt the peacefulness of the pond. i regret but to bring in the example of the recent comment made on singaporean students which caused a big hoo ha.

i'm publishing this journal, (to much irony) in hope to remind my fellow bloggers to remember that, many pple ARE reading your blogs. so think before you write, u might not know who will be affected by ur so-called harmless blog...

[As quoted from http://www.livejournal.com/users/forall_9876/] saw it on lilgurlie's blog

Interesting.. Everyone should exercise self-censorship.juz lyke vcds I know of people who say that it's your bloody blog so you can jolly well say whatever shit that pleases your fancy. Because if you don't rant about it on your blog, where else are you going to do it? In your personal diary or a blog which is PRIVATE and no one can view? A blog which people can readily access and read what you're writing is like your mouth (well, you, really) talking in public and people can just hear what you say. The supposed freedom that you have in your blog is like the supposed freedom of speech... Well, I don't deny the fact that you can feel free to express an opinion that you feel strongly about, do consider the consequences of you making that particular statement or expressing your feelings.whatever you say on your blog, make sure you have the guts to say it in real life as well. Let's say, if you slam your friend Miss X on your blog, make sure whatever you say, you have what it takes to tell her to her face as well. However, sumting not meant to be said please dun say..


time to mug n study.. mathz is gettin me crazy.. today no infocus so muz focus at home.. im outty here muggy time
GO AwaY sUX..

Yet another day has passed, which brings me closer and closer to MYE .. today half the time i feel so damn grumpy...im like bothered by sthin....but i cant seem to place my finger on it....i only noe tt deep down, im not happy. cos if i was really n truly happy, i wld have so much on my mind....i wldnt have so many "what if(s)" goin ard in my heart....
Raining. I could've just stayed in bed, listening to music... Than waking up... :) Haven't been experiencing this kinda weather, early in the morning... ever since that HOT weather hit us...
Life. is always filled with ups and downs~ I feel very down lately but i will try to smile and hide my sorrows to myself.. I always try to not let any of my personal life affect my daily performance at school and socialising.

I just wanna leave a strong piece of advice for all those reading my blog and for those who know me n of coz to myself
Here it goes....

You only lived once.
Make full use of it.
There may be days when you feel...
Lazy,
Forgetful,
Rude,
Irritating,
Dun blame yourself.
Why?
Simple.
Because no one is PERFECT.

Dare to dream BIG.
Why not?
Even if your friends ridicule you...
They are not you.
You are not them.
You are you.
You know yourself best.
Don't give up on yourself.

Tell yourself...
Anything is possible.
Difficult does not mean Impossible

Live life to the fullest!
Have a positive outlook in life and you will find that life doesn't really have to "sux"!

hm.. yesterday.. kinda busy day.. din had a chance to blog.. so start wif wad happen yesterday.. morning sch as usual.. Eng n Chi Paper.. Movie Review.. haiz.. den after sch.. hang out at Mac for lunch.. reached home.. watch tv.. then slp lor.. den meet ivy n frenz at 430.. for dinner at Marina South.. ppl whu went: Ivy YuWen WeiPing Vanessa Jaren Zewei Johanan.. kinda fun.. steamboat.. nw as for today.. Labour Day.. did nuting.. other than watching tv.. coz.. public holiz lotz of show.. lyke concerts lor.. Channel i n 5.. shiok sia.. almost non-stop.. den went out for dinner n den as usual gradma hse.. den cum home lor..

tv time..

okie... bloggy time.. actual nuthin much to say.. tml paper 1 start. den after sch.. got sum plans..go marina south eat.. wanna celebrate ivy's birthday which is on da 7.. amalina's on 6.. Happie BirthDay My Friends
life's gettin boring.. everiday.. do past yrs paper..haiz.. Cute.. dats wad luqman call me.. sacarstically it is supposed to mean ugly but adorable.. dotz.. lots of movie cuming up today.. got 'Win A Date With Tad Hamilton' .. 'Koma'.. 'Dawn of the Dead'.. '50 first dates'.. n a cop movie by Edison..hehe my fav.. :) so mani interestin movie tat i wanna watch bt i am broke.. nvm.. my bro d.l 'win a date..' so later got time can watch..

outty..here..

yesterday.. speech day.. everiting kinda fine lor.. cheryl praised us.. lolz.. say we played much betta.. den there was a mac burger for performers den supposed to be breakfast ate it onli after everiting abt 1130 liao.. den start eating liao den noe can eat da buffet.. aiya full liao lor.. den me yuwen weipin ivy tok tok in canteen b4 go look for cheryl ask her teach physics lor.. tml test mah.. den jieyi joined us awhile lata.. den after tat all go my hse.. supposed to study.. bt kinda gossip lor.. dunid go iinto details.. tok abt too many tingy liao.. frm ghost to frenz to ...too mani lar.. den after they left went out wif family for dinner.. coz my mum n dad goin out so dunid to go grandma hse.. i went home lor.. watch tv n rot.. by 10 i tink i slp on the sofa liao lor.. den blur blur.. walk into room.. zz until tis morning 8 bah.. feelin freshed.. so as usual watch tv.. then 10 start doing the compos completed do emaths.. lata gonna study physics lor..

hm.. nuthing to say liao.. wonder why ppl can write so mani tingy bt i cant.. mayb my life is boring..
outta here...

tml annual sppech day.. hai.z. muz wake up early.. hope it will be fun n fast.. lolz..
i promised myself to be no longer concerned or bothered by all tis tingy :)

lights out.. outty here..

hm.. i might be over sensitive.. be tat damn word childish is really getting irritating.. i irritated by ppl whu kept mentionin tat da cold war is sumting childish... ppl kept mentionin tat tis tingy is childish wanting it to end quickly.. in da 1st place does it concern you.. tink twice thrice b4 u start giving you coment.. although ive gt no right to stop you.. suits u


im outta here.. dinner..
tmr is another day :)

latest update nicoll highway.. da road caved in.. dangerous.. sia
latest update on the cold war(dunno whu named it) .. i cant be bother so.. to make thing end.. sweetly.. n wif a smile.. i admit.. it is my fault.. dun point fingers at others only.. me..

today sch i damn boring.. singh gave us a weird survey.. dun wanna go into details.. den lit.. i realised majority of the bois.. noe wad is happenin in the class.. zhen hao.. said we frenz for 4 yrs.. liao.. den tell him wad happen.. i really dunno wad to say.. juz wanted to say i noe her for 4 yrs too.. i dun even understand her well until tis very moment.. i push myself to de limits to prevent.. the tears frm rolling.. i wanna let ppl noe tat..i am not tat weak. although when i was 1st given the attitute.. i cried.. wads goin.. on.. haiz.. nvm.. tomorrow wud be a betta day..

lesson learnt today.. nv read other blog.. i went to shifah n wenting's blog.. n realised everiting seems to be my fault.. but.. i still wasnt told wad the actual reason it ish.. sum childish stuff.. i lost a friend whom i noe for 4 yrs.. juz coz of sum rubbish.. in a few months time graduatin but.. i realised to solve all probs i had to admit it is my fault.. coz.. but.. wads wrong.. wad did i do wrongly.. i am lost.. misunderstandings.. lyk in hist we alwayz learn there muz be a cause to conflicts.. wad is the cause den. i really wanna noe..

lifez.. gettin boring.. today.. nat realised tat sumting ish goin wrong.. btw us.. so approach me.. ask wad happen.. but i din explain to complicated.. today speech day full dress.. my section leader cum cousin.. din tell me muz wear full 'u' had to rush home to change.. sianz.. tired.. den parade we screw up the Hawaii 5-0.. lucki others was fine.. tml got hist(elect) common test.. i suppose ish in the hall.. sianz.. tired....

Wad's your take on backstabbers? Those whom you thot were treating you genuinely and showing total sincerity but were actually just sharpening their knives along e way, waiting for a chance to prick you in the back.

I stole this from Kelvin's blog! (my bro)

The last thing you:

1.said- "bye" to iveek
2.ate- peach
3.watched on TV or film- Advertisement
4.listened to (music wise)- Cyndi latest album
5.bought (clothes wise)- top frm lvl one
6.bought (CDs wise)- since mp3 ish created i haven been buying
7.downloaded off the net ? - mp3.. Nelly Furtado -Try
8.played on (computer game wise)- nah..
9.drank- Coke
10.wrote on msn- Cya
11.won- nuthingg
12.wore- a orange esprit- tee
13.brushed (teeth or hair)- Hair.
14.drew- I don't draw.
15.said that made you feel happy- Why would I say something to make myself feel happy? Urm, "oh my gort" because I was pissed off
16.didn't mean to say but did- i am angry wif her
17.really regret- not toking..to..
18.did that was very embarrassing- I don't know?
19.saw in the cinema- eRm.. Hauted Mansion ?
20.tidied up- My room. I do that everyday.

The last person you?
21.talked to- My mum.
22.talked to on the phone- Iveek
23.rang- Mammy
24.kissed- ....no one
25.said I love you to and meant it (if ever)- ...no one
26.got angry with- Half the world and the person him/herself knows it.
27.bitched about behind their back- I don't want to say bitch because I was being truthful, nonetheless, people call that bitching and it's the person in question from question 26.
28.txted- erm.. cant remember
29.cried about- being shown an attitute
30.had a crush on- N.A.

The last time you?
31.slept- last nite
32.got angry- This morning.
33.were happy- Just now, after i suddenly felt i wanst lonely
34.were sad- Sometime last week
35.cried- 7 days ago.
36.loved someone- i am still lovin my family
37.ate something- Just now.
38.drank something- Just now.
39.stroked an animal- Too long for me to remember.
40.went abroad- Last December

The last place you?
41.went on holiday- M'sia.. i suppose tat ish holiday
42.went shopping- Town.
43.were part from next to ur computer- my room
44.would ever like to be- Nowhere.
45.ate out at- Breeks
46.went and didnt want to be- Marina South. kite flying ish borinn
47.went and got told off for breaking rules- I don't break rules and even if I do, somehow I just don't get told off. Don't ask me why or how.
48.broke the law- I jay-walked?
49.kissed someone- no one..
50.hit someone (if ever)- puched ruizhen.lolzz


today.. sch was boring.. i suppose im gonna flunk my lit test.. had chinese test too.. diff sia..
nuthin much to say..

im outty... dinner den study tml emaths test.. wish me luckk !~

orite.. monday blues. over.. today ish tuesday.. hm nuthing special.. juz tat mr.singh i suppose back to his usual funni self.. but.. wad he said was.. serious.. yet funny.. he tok abt there was a few cleaners.. out of boredom.. decided to haf sum fun.. one of them squeez da water pipe tingy into anothers anus.. n on the water flow.. causing the man do die.. coz. the intestine all messy.. digusting sia.. tis old man(singh)

as usual tues. is chinese infocus.. finally had a decent tok wif shifah (i suppose) its been a long time.. since we last tok i sort of finally.. noe the reason to the.. friend-friend.. tingy.. i suppose it ish my fault.. shldnt be too close to ani of my frenz..
--> lesson learnt.. aniwae.. dun wanna tok too much abt tis'

lunch break.. kj asked beth wanna watch movie.. dunno wad she say.. den kj ask me.. say ask me keep beth accompany.. at tat moment i really felt weird.. i din noe wad to ans... can sumone tell me the ans.. ... sianzz..

dinner time.. outty here

The long weekend is over in a blitz, time to mellow down the party mood and prepare to deal with the loads of stuff dis comin week!

tis morning as usual woke up at 6.30.. die my ear ish swollen.. yap u din read wrongly it ish swollen.. there is a pimple-like tingy grwing on my left ear.. n mind u.. it is bringin me.. irritatin pain... wanted to nt go sch.. but unsuccessful in convincing my mum tat it ish.. a tremendous pain.. n i cant hear from my left year.. everiting seemed empty.. as usual.. lesson.. i suppose nuthing special.. happened had amths test n chinese letter writing test.. den.. suppose to hav a lit test.. but.. who noe.. msleong.. changed it to wed.. or.. i tink.. it had been plan to be on wed.. but dunno.. whu msg n say.. mon.. aniwae.. doesnt really matter..... sch day ended.. with infocus.. eng.. n yap as usual.. i walked.. home.. :)

reached.. home.. in real pain.. n the pain killer isnt working on my ear... my mum.. came with a pin wanting to burst my pimple like ting.. she gave a lil poke.. n i scream on top of my voice.. told her i dun wanna go sch tml.. she say ok.. but if c.. doc.. worst.. dr.quah is famous for being a messy.. fast lady doc.. if go see.. her poking n bursting n s\ueezing wud be much worst.. so.. i called off the idea of.. not going sch .. really.. hope.. the stronger pain killer.. wud.. work..

This guilt trip that you put me on won't mess me up I've done no wrong .. don't tell me

im outty..

o~rite.. wake up as early as 830... to watch the show i missed last nite.. erm.. da title ish.. criminal investigation IV.. i tink so cant remember.. then the show ended at 10.. my mum woke up.. n breakfast time.. went dwn.. eat.. laksa.. den.. came home.. revise amths.. complete eng n phy.. done.. wanted to watch tv.. as usual again.. but.. no tv was available.. my dad was watching a gold match.. my bro.. is still.. asleep.. so cant use to tv in his room.. my mum.. was also watching guess3 repeat. in her room.. so i am left wif no tv.. accept.. my radio.. so.. on radio.. n relacc..

skipped lunch coz.. was porridge.. at last my turn to watch.. tv my dad was out.. while watchin scent of love.. fell asleep i tink at the touchy part.. so.. muz watch da repeat tonite... hehe.. repeat queenn.lol..

juz finish checking mail.. realised lotsa ppl.. join da hi5.. i tink it ish sumting similar to friendster.. lor..
hm.. i juz did sum crime to d.l a couple of songs.. but whu cares if it is offensive..

i downloaded --

breathe easy by blue
CHORUS
I... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I... can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

100 yrs by five for fighting
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

try by nelly furtado
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

lastly... latest single by avril lavigne.. don't tell me..
Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

ok... reached home.. after a long ride.. on the mrt train.. frm tampines to woodlands n back.. i tink it is kinda worthwhile coz.. the performance.. was.. interesting..

lights off... too tired to continue blogging..

ok.. tis morning woke up at 815.. feelin fresh.. although i had only slept.. at 2+.. which means ish abt 6hrs lor.. perhaps i am use to wakin up.. early.. so.. 815 ish alrite.. tat had breakfast then started doing homewrk.. i did amths eng.. left wif physics(i hate it).. mon got amths test.. haiz... finish studyin.. watch tv.. as usual on sat not much tv prog. so watch chinese mtv51.. n den day dream..lor.. tonite gonna go dwn all da way.. to woodlands da marsling sec.. c band concert.. hope it wub be.. nice...........


wondering.. y am i starting to hate long weekends..

Nelly Furtado : "Try"

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

hm.. today ish good friday.. suppose to be a good.. one.. but to me it ish horrible.. im stuck at home.. coz.. my parents went out.. n my bro ish out for a soccer game as usual.. all alone.. though im suppose to be used to it.. i feel.. bored..
way b4 good friday.. had plans of hangin out wif frenz.. but tis good friday.. isnt good at all.. to me

maybe tis smiley will brighten the day of all those facin same prob as me.. n of coz.. my own day

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'cheerz

change new blog skin... veri reluctant to tok abt wad happen tis few days.. i mean i suppose ish since mon... mani ting happen but i dun understand y it happen n wads wrong with Me.. am i at fault.. yah.. so obvious from tat attitute face...

tis is wad i wrote.. during.. chem lesson on wed.. it was such a quiet lesson... here it goes..
7/4/04 time:11.50am..chem

there is a limit to everiting. i hate tat feeling. im born lyke tis, cant help it. if u dun lyke it u tink i care. i never xpected myself to do tat, but i did it. i tok but i was given an Attittute face. i hate tat damn face..
although i manage to survive thru chem.. poa.. tings were gettin.. worst.. by assembly.. i was away.. frm it.. during.. lunch break.. i exploded.. i could not.. accept the fact tat i had.. to be blamed.. (if i din get the reason wronly).. i cried.. it was totally.. disastrous.. i had my.. frenz.. but.. not it.. .. i control.. myself n tried luffin.. thru.. it.. at nite while studyin for hist test lipink.. msg.. me ask wad.. happen.. then i tink for awhile.. i dunno wad to reply.. coz. i am too confuse. for wrds.. i juz replied.. cannt tahan the attitute.. she gave me.. a super duper reply.. cant remember xactly.. but ish sumtin lyke tis.. dun cry over sumone who dun care for u.. sumone who care for u wun make u cry...



I feel like I'm living the worst day I feel like you're gone And every day is the worst day ever...Simple Plan

a.t.t.i.t.u.t.e

hm... yesterday.. nv go sports day.. go to da.. bonkers tingy.. dun really wana go in detailss...
after tat.. went home.. bath.. out.. i go chiong.. at my cousin's chalet.. my cousin's son's(tanson) one yr old bday ..really wanted to chiong n hav fun.. but.. reached there.. sianz.. all around.. babies. i mean younger than me lor.. the 'oldest' there ish lyk one pri2.. iam.. lyke.. at least twice their age..n my.. older cousins.. werent there sianz.. .. forget to say.. da chalet at east coast da costa sands.. lor.. den.. shocked again.. coz.. ish.. buffet no bbq.. which.. means.. after eating.. NUthing to do.. liao.. hmp.. den decided.. to bring.. cute lil' boy rayden.. out.. for.. a walk.. we.. walk ( i mean still baby had to carry) one big round.. juz to get out of costa sands.. then went to beach.. lor.. sad rite.. walkin at beach with a 1+ years old baby.. den to my horror walk walk.. rayden.. actually slp without.. me knowin.. so had to go back lor.. den around.. 10 plus.. after a long.. day.. i beg my dad.. to go back.. so.. we went home.. n i drop dead on my bed.. zz..

tis mornin woke up @ 8+.. usual mornin my laze around 1st lar.. watch tv.. den go do.. lit homewrk.. den slp lor... coz.. still tired.. den wok up for lunch.. n i continue.. with my sunday's laze

hm.. today... sch end early.. means.. short sch day.. singh during last period gave us yet another cme talk! he wrote an eqn on da board.. Success= 1% inspiration + 99% perspiration... dotz.. wonder did i heard it wrongly.. or.. wad.. bluurr..

tml is sch annual sports.. siao sia.. dis yr.. in da afternoon.. 130.. when the sun is.. soooo bright.. aniwae.. tml.. nt going.. coz. going to da.. Tp.. the BonkersIII tingy.. hope it wud be fun.. hehe..




outta' here